This morning I went outside to put rubbish into the bin and happened to look towards my tiny garden at the back. My heart sank as a number of straggly plants and weeds grinned back at me. I knew it would only take a couple of hours to tidy the garden, but it was cold and windy outside. Besides, no-one else could see my garden anyway.
As I went inside, I felt ashamed for being so lazy. I’ve always been lazy for as long as I can remember. If my room was messy when I was a child or I didn’t do as well in school exams as my parents expected me to, I was told I was lazy. As I became an adult and then the mother of three daughters, I always found it easier to spend an hour reading a book or going for a walk instead of doing the ironing or cleaning my kitchen cupboards. While I’ve managed to hide my laziness from others most of the time, there is no doubt about it, I am lazy to the core.
After putting the rubbish in the bin I went inside, made a coffee and turned on my laptop. While it was booting up, I took a mouthful of coffee and as I did, an unexpected question flew through my mind. ‘If I was planning to work hard for the next five to six hours on the new book I’m writing, am I really so lazy?’
I thought back on all the things I’d avoided or done with reluctance over my lifetime. Things like housework, gardening, the boring parts of my job, anything to do with numbers and budgeting or socializing with people who bored me. A light pinged on in in my head as I suddenly realized I wasn’t lazy after all. I simply had no interest spending my energy on things I didn’t care about.
Lack of interest doesn’t make you lazy. It shows you where not to look for your greatness.
Of course, in life we all have to do things we don’t care about. My house needs to be kept reasonably tidy and I have to manage my finances, but a reluctance to do those things doesn’t make me lazy.
Perhaps you’ve confused lack of interest with laziness like I did? Recognize that how you see the world and what’s important is unique to you. Stop judging yourself because your interests are different from other people’s.
You can’t avoid everything in life that bores you, but try to focus most of your energy and time doing the things that inspire and excite you. Those are the things that will give you fulfillment and make the world a better place.
I wish I’d learned earlier that I’m not so lazy after all.
What things do you dislike doing and what things do you love? Pay attention and you can learn a lot about yourself.
I’d love to hear from you about the things that excite you and give your life meaning. How can you fill more of your life with them?